LOTS of things going on lately.

Last Saturday my oldest son's team won their game 36-9. My son scored 4pts!!! He was so proud of himself. He is doing awesome in practice and in games!! My lil girl had her game too... Don't ask me how that went. Seriously. I don't even think she should play basketball this year. That is how I feel about it. She doesn't even really try.  *sigh* My bball skills skipped her and the boys got it all, I'm sure. She plays just like her daddy and he can't play for shit.

Tuesday I got a call from my youngest son's preschool teacher. She told me that he was complaining about his ear hurting, he wasn't playing and just laying his head down. She called while I had a group of clients with me. Talk about stressful. Dealing with all that AND my clients. I called my mom and luckily she could pick him up. I got him a doc appt and let her know. Turns out that he has an ear infection. The doc thought he had the flu from how he was acting but the test came up negative... THANKFULLY!!!! I guess he had a fever of 102, threw up on his way out of daycare, and was just sleeping a lot. He is doing much better today. It sucks when my kids are sick. This whole house needs to be lysol'd.

More fun today. Okay not really fun. My dog, Gizmo, was acting all weird today. He hadn't touched his food, wasn't running around like a maniac, or jumping up like he usually does. I called the vet clinic here in town and took him in to get looked at. The vet thinks its his hip. He is a large breed dog so that seems to be a normal issue. I'm hoping its not hip dysplasia. Or even arthritis. He is only 3 yrs old. The dysplasia can happen anytime since its genetic and also linked to obesity. He has about 10 lbs to lose. The vet prescribed him a pain killer/anti-inflammatory med. He seemed like he was doing better about 45 min after I gave it to him but apparently it wears off around 4 hours because he is starting to do the same thing again. If he does good on the med but not after its finished then he will have to go back in to be sedated for x-rays. I feel bad for my pups. I'm going to get him some glucosamine/chondroitin supplements for him. It's more of a preventative move since I'm not actually sure if he has issues with his joints etc. It's not going to hurt him. In the long run it will help him.

The kids' winter break starts tomorrow after school. I'M. NOT. READY. This will be my last free day off without kids until after the new year. Thankful for my job so I can get away from those crazy nuts!! I'm going to need it lol. I work Xmas eve AND Xmas day (dbl time!!!). I will be dropping the kids off at their dads for Xmas eve and Xmas. I won't get them back until after work on Xmas day. Not a big deal. They will have to wait to open their presents. I can't wait to see their faces when they open their presents! I actually got to go out and buy them ALL in one freaking day. I got my bf a 2 yr subscrip to Diesel Power... his fave magazine. I already told him about it since he won't be around yet to open presents with us.

Speaking of... 23 more days until he gets out!!

I hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas (in my case, Dreadmas)!!! OH and have a Happy End of the World Day Friday!!! =P hahahahahaha!

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ALMOST...

One YEAR since the last time I posted some shit on this thing. *shrugs*

Uhmmm... let us see.

New things happening:
1) I got a JOB! Crazy right? I am now working with people who have special needs/disabled etc. So people who have Down's Syndrome, various levels of mental retardation, Autism, physical disabilities etc. BUT guess what!! I LOVE this job. Yeah. I'm dead serious.

My first week at my new job was spent in the evening at one of the residential houses. I got to know 7 of the clients. I am also pretty sure I got more hugs in one week than I have in one month! They are so loving... well most of them are. Some are just pain in the asses. LOL! I do really compare them to children. They grow up physically but not mentally. It has been fun!

I am working 12 hours on Sundays and 6.5 hours Mon-Wed. I am even thinking about asking for more hours! I get paid bi-weekly and that, I think, might be my doom. BUT I am glad I finally have a job!! Can't complain.

2) My bf will be coming home in 2 MONTHS!! I cannot wait! It will be 15 months total. I'm counting down the days.

3) My oldest son and daughter are playing basketball this year! My son's 4th year playing and my daughters 1st! I am going to be super freaking busy. Both have practice on different days thankfully. However, both have games on the same days. I am hoping that they will be down the street in our town and not 15 min away like last year. I'm excited to see how my girl plays. So far she looks like she is going to do good! This mama is a proud mama. I WILL be making player signs this year too. LOL oh my son would just love that. He'd probably be embarrassed. *shrugs* oh well. At least he knows I am rooting for him!!

4) My life is boring otherwise. LOL sorry, not sorry. That is all I have for you. This is my kid free weekend but I can't go out because, 1) I do not have any money for that; 2) I'm tired; 3) I'm just plain ol boring; 4) OH I have to go to work at 9am tomorrow morning; 5) Uhm, nothing else.

5) OH and I am just waiting for that first paycheck. For real. I NEED money like crazy. If you'd like to donate some, you can comment here or message me. ;) lol just playing... maybe.

It is time for me to take some melatonin and pass the fuck out! Goodnight.

Dude... Wtf?

Yeah I know, it's been a while. Anyway...

I finally got off of my ass to do my workout. Pushed myself a little bit harder. What do I get for it?? Fucking insomnia. Any other time I do the same workout I end up taking a nap.

So what gives?!?!?!

Instead of being in my bed, all nice and cozy under my blankets, I am here fucking with this blog. I have to say tho, I do like the minor changes I've made.

Point is... I would like to sleep and I can't. This will be the last time I workout around midnight. I had no clue where to log my food/exercise tonight. My ass hurts right now. Apparently my legs had enough tonight.

Oh god, I need to fucking sleep. I'm out.

The beginning of the end...

I cant find the words to explain how I feel.

I could never be truly scared of you. But I will never forget that night.

The fear. The pain. Your hand around the back of my neck. The pressure point of pain. Nonsensical words, phrases. Within minutes, it stops. Finally passed out on the bed. I sit. I wait. I cant sleep.

Hours later.

The blank stare. The look of thoughts running through your mind. The red eyes. The tears. Your tears and mine. "I want to leave, I want to leave". "Im so sorry".

The drive to your house. The hand you held out. Walking through the door. Up the stairs.

Wondering why I was even there. Your words. My disbelief. Still shaken. We sleep.

Here we are now. You say, you say I promise. Dont make promises you cant keep. You will feel the heat when that time comes. If I find out.

It will be the last.

So you arent my best friend yet...

Yep, its been a LONG time since I last posted and yea I've only got what 3 posts up. I'm not addicted to blogging as much as I used to be. MAYBE I should transfer some of my myspace blogs over here. I actually just made a blog post on there a few weeks ago!! Be right back... HAHA!!

Too Young To Die

I heard about a 17yr olds death today. There are many RIP statuses on Facebook for him and prayers going out to his family. From what I can tell, this kid was extremely loved and will be missed greatly. You never know when you will lose someone you love. I dont know him or his family but I am definitely praying for them.

Here is a news story: http://www.kansascity.com/2010/10/29/2368427/spring-hill-football-player-dies.html

Having fun yet?

Who knew I'd ever enjoy being shot?

Over the weekend the bf and I headed to Jaeger's Paintball in KCMO. My 1st time paintballing.
I think I am now addicted. (Yes I want to buy my own marker and mask!!)

I've always wanted to try paintballing. My grandparents even live 10miles away from an outdoor field. Never once thought I'd be playing in limestone mines. Didnt see that one coming. Jaegers is located basically underground. It smells bad. Its cold. They play bagpipe music there. By the time I left, I didnt notice any of that anymore. Didnt care. I just wanted to go back as soon as I could. Which btw will be Saturday!!!

I went in and had no idea what was going to happen. I had the general idea of paintball but not the specifics. Yea I'd like to thank my bf for that... I figured it out tho. We got set up and I had started putting the gloves on and my bf said "You are really going to wear the gloves?", I say "Well shouldnt I?" and then he said to me "You usually wont get shot in the hand."... Well obviously this is where I was going to be shot TWICE. Thank you BF and thanks for providing me a cold bottle of pop I could use to ice my fingers. Is it possible to not know that your finger is broken or cracked?

1st game out, mostly a bunch of little kids, me and the bf. We are on the yellow team. Yellow team gets their asses kicked by blue team. I get shot in the shin AND my inner thigh. Boy does that sting. I basically stood in one spot that whole first game not knowing what to do. It was rather pathetic. But after 5hrs I was only partly pathetic. Im proud of that. Small victory for me. Total of 7 welts on me. I might have been shot more than that but I was wearing a long and short sleeve shirt. The only ones that welted were the ones on my legs and my hand. (Thankfully Im on a leave of absence from school, I need my hands.)

My bf has his own marker. Pretty damn expensive IMO. An Ion I think. He let me try it out. Yea I cant handle it. The trigger is too sensitive for me. I was fairly comfortable with the Tippman I was using. I'm a beginner, what can I say? I had the worst time with the mask. I have glasses and it just wasnt working out. I finally had to put on one of the hard hats. Then it was foggy. Anti-fog glass cleaner my ass.

It was a GREAT Sunday. I had lots of fun and the adrenaline rush is what I needed. We are going back on Saturday and this time I WILL shoot my bf in the ass. (He said no to nutshots... damnit)