One YEAR since the last time I posted some shit on this thing. *shrugs*
Uhmmm... let us see.
New things happening:
1) I got a JOB! Crazy right? I am now working with people who have special needs/disabled etc. So people who have Down's Syndrome, various levels of mental retardation, Autism, physical disabilities etc. BUT guess what!! I LOVE this job. Yeah. I'm dead serious.
My first week at my new job was spent in the evening at one of the residential houses. I got to know 7 of the clients. I am also pretty sure I got more hugs in one week than I have in one month! They are so loving... well most of them are. Some are just pain in the asses. LOL! I do really compare them to children. They grow up physically but not mentally. It has been fun!
I am working 12 hours on Sundays and 6.5 hours Mon-Wed. I am even thinking about asking for more hours! I get paid bi-weekly and that, I think, might be my doom. BUT I am glad I finally have a job!! Can't complain.
2) My bf will be coming home in 2 MONTHS!! I cannot wait! It will be 15 months total. I'm counting down the days.
3) My oldest son and daughter are playing basketball this year! My son's 4th year playing and my daughters 1st! I am going to be super freaking busy. Both have practice on different days thankfully. However, both have games on the same days. I am hoping that they will be down the street in our town and not 15 min away like last year. I'm excited to see how my girl plays. So far she looks like she is going to do good! This mama is a proud mama. I WILL be making player signs this year too. LOL oh my son would just love that. He'd probably be embarrassed. *shrugs* oh well. At least he knows I am rooting for him!!
4) My life is boring otherwise. LOL sorry, not sorry. That is all I have for you. This is my kid free weekend but I can't go out because, 1) I do not have any money for that; 2) I'm tired; 3) I'm just plain ol boring; 4) OH I have to go to work at 9am tomorrow morning; 5) Uhm, nothing else.
5) OH and I am just waiting for that first paycheck. For real. I NEED money like crazy. If you'd like to donate some, you can comment here or message me. ;) lol just playing... maybe.
It is time for me to take some melatonin and pass the fuck out! Goodnight.
Saturday, November 17, 2012
Saturday, November 19, 2011
Dude... Wtf?
Yeah I know, it's been a while. Anyway...
I finally got off of my ass to do my workout. Pushed myself a little bit harder. What do I get for it?? Fucking insomnia. Any other time I do the same workout I end up taking a nap.
So what gives?!?!?!
Instead of being in my bed, all nice and cozy under my blankets, I am here fucking with this blog. I have to say tho, I do like the minor changes I've made.
Point is... I would like to sleep and I can't. This will be the last time I workout around midnight. I had no clue where to log my food/exercise tonight. My ass hurts right now. Apparently my legs had enough tonight.
Oh god, I need to fucking sleep. I'm out.
I finally got off of my ass to do my workout. Pushed myself a little bit harder. What do I get for it?? Fucking insomnia. Any other time I do the same workout I end up taking a nap.
So what gives?!?!?!
Instead of being in my bed, all nice and cozy under my blankets, I am here fucking with this blog. I have to say tho, I do like the minor changes I've made.
Point is... I would like to sleep and I can't. This will be the last time I workout around midnight. I had no clue where to log my food/exercise tonight. My ass hurts right now. Apparently my legs had enough tonight.
Oh god, I need to fucking sleep. I'm out.
Monday, April 11, 2011
The beginning of the end...
I cant find the words to explain how I feel.
I could never be truly scared of you. But I will never forget that night.
The fear. The pain. Your hand around the back of my neck. The pressure point of pain. Nonsensical words, phrases. Within minutes, it stops. Finally passed out on the bed. I sit. I wait. I cant sleep.
Hours later.
The blank stare. The look of thoughts running through your mind. The red eyes. The tears. Your tears and mine. "I want to leave, I want to leave". "Im so sorry".
The drive to your house. The hand you held out. Walking through the door. Up the stairs.
Wondering why I was even there. Your words. My disbelief. Still shaken. We sleep.
Here we are now. You say, you say I promise. Dont make promises you cant keep. You will feel the heat when that time comes. If I find out.
It will be the last.
I could never be truly scared of you. But I will never forget that night.
The fear. The pain. Your hand around the back of my neck. The pressure point of pain. Nonsensical words, phrases. Within minutes, it stops. Finally passed out on the bed. I sit. I wait. I cant sleep.
Hours later.
The blank stare. The look of thoughts running through your mind. The red eyes. The tears. Your tears and mine. "I want to leave, I want to leave". "Im so sorry".
The drive to your house. The hand you held out. Walking through the door. Up the stairs.
Wondering why I was even there. Your words. My disbelief. Still shaken. We sleep.
Here we are now. You say, you say I promise. Dont make promises you cant keep. You will feel the heat when that time comes. If I find out.
It will be the last.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
So you arent my best friend yet...
Yep, its been a LONG time since I last posted and yea I've only got what 3 posts up. I'm not addicted to blogging as much as I used to be. MAYBE I should transfer some of my myspace blogs over here. I actually just made a blog post on there a few weeks ago!! Be right back... HAHA!!
Friday, October 29, 2010
Too Young To Die
I heard about a 17yr olds death today. There are many RIP statuses on Facebook for him and prayers going out to his family. From what I can tell, this kid was extremely loved and will be missed greatly. You never know when you will lose someone you love. I dont know him or his family but I am definitely praying for them.
Here is a news story: http://www.kansascity.com/2010/10/29/2368427/spring-hill-football-player-dies.html
Here is a news story: http://www.kansascity.com/2010/10/29/2368427/spring-hill-football-player-dies.html
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Having fun yet?
Who knew I'd ever enjoy being shot?
Over the weekend the bf and I headed to Jaeger's Paintball in KCMO. My 1st time paintballing.
I think I am now addicted. (Yes I want to buy my own marker and mask!!)
I've always wanted to try paintballing. My grandparents even live 10miles away from an outdoor field. Never once thought I'd be playing in limestone mines. Didnt see that one coming. Jaegers is located basically underground. It smells bad. Its cold. They play bagpipe music there. By the time I left, I didnt notice any of that anymore. Didnt care. I just wanted to go back as soon as I could. Which btw will be Saturday!!!
I went in and had no idea what was going to happen. I had the general idea of paintball but not the specifics. Yea I'd like to thank my bf for that... I figured it out tho. We got set up and I had started putting the gloves on and my bf said "You are really going to wear the gloves?", I say "Well shouldnt I?" and then he said to me "You usually wont get shot in the hand."... Well obviously this is where I was going to be shot TWICE. Thank you BF and thanks for providing me a cold bottle of pop I could use to ice my fingers. Is it possible to not know that your finger is broken or cracked?
1st game out, mostly a bunch of little kids, me and the bf. We are on the yellow team. Yellow team gets their asses kicked by blue team. I get shot in the shin AND my inner thigh. Boy does that sting. I basically stood in one spot that whole first game not knowing what to do. It was rather pathetic. But after 5hrs I was only partly pathetic. Im proud of that. Small victory for me. Total of 7 welts on me. I might have been shot more than that but I was wearing a long and short sleeve shirt. The only ones that welted were the ones on my legs and my hand. (Thankfully Im on a leave of absence from school, I need my hands.)
My bf has his own marker. Pretty damn expensive IMO. An Ion I think. He let me try it out. Yea I cant handle it. The trigger is too sensitive for me. I was fairly comfortable with the Tippman I was using. I'm a beginner, what can I say? I had the worst time with the mask. I have glasses and it just wasnt working out. I finally had to put on one of the hard hats. Then it was foggy. Anti-fog glass cleaner my ass.
It was a GREAT Sunday. I had lots of fun and the adrenaline rush is what I needed. We are going back on Saturday and this time I WILL shoot my bf in the ass. (He said no to nutshots... damnit)
Over the weekend the bf and I headed to Jaeger's Paintball in KCMO. My 1st time paintballing.
I think I am now addicted. (Yes I want to buy my own marker and mask!!)
I've always wanted to try paintballing. My grandparents even live 10miles away from an outdoor field. Never once thought I'd be playing in limestone mines. Didnt see that one coming. Jaegers is located basically underground. It smells bad. Its cold. They play bagpipe music there. By the time I left, I didnt notice any of that anymore. Didnt care. I just wanted to go back as soon as I could. Which btw will be Saturday!!!
I went in and had no idea what was going to happen. I had the general idea of paintball but not the specifics. Yea I'd like to thank my bf for that... I figured it out tho. We got set up and I had started putting the gloves on and my bf said "You are really going to wear the gloves?", I say "Well shouldnt I?" and then he said to me "You usually wont get shot in the hand."... Well obviously this is where I was going to be shot TWICE. Thank you BF and thanks for providing me a cold bottle of pop I could use to ice my fingers. Is it possible to not know that your finger is broken or cracked?
1st game out, mostly a bunch of little kids, me and the bf. We are on the yellow team. Yellow team gets their asses kicked by blue team. I get shot in the shin AND my inner thigh. Boy does that sting. I basically stood in one spot that whole first game not knowing what to do. It was rather pathetic. But after 5hrs I was only partly pathetic. Im proud of that. Small victory for me. Total of 7 welts on me. I might have been shot more than that but I was wearing a long and short sleeve shirt. The only ones that welted were the ones on my legs and my hand. (Thankfully Im on a leave of absence from school, I need my hands.)
My bf has his own marker. Pretty damn expensive IMO. An Ion I think. He let me try it out. Yea I cant handle it. The trigger is too sensitive for me. I was fairly comfortable with the Tippman I was using. I'm a beginner, what can I say? I had the worst time with the mask. I have glasses and it just wasnt working out. I finally had to put on one of the hard hats. Then it was foggy. Anti-fog glass cleaner my ass.
It was a GREAT Sunday. I had lots of fun and the adrenaline rush is what I needed. We are going back on Saturday and this time I WILL shoot my bf in the ass. (He said no to nutshots... damnit)
Friday, September 24, 2010
Whoa dang...
This is the usual "first blog, getting shit figured out" blog. Today I really have nothing to say. SO I will just say HELLO!! (Later on, I will post some pics)
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