Dude... Wtf?

Yeah I know, it's been a while. Anyway...

I finally got off of my ass to do my workout. Pushed myself a little bit harder. What do I get for it?? Fucking insomnia. Any other time I do the same workout I end up taking a nap.

So what gives?!?!?!

Instead of being in my bed, all nice and cozy under my blankets, I am here fucking with this blog. I have to say tho, I do like the minor changes I've made.

Point is... I would like to sleep and I can't. This will be the last time I workout around midnight. I had no clue where to log my food/exercise tonight. My ass hurts right now. Apparently my legs had enough tonight.

Oh god, I need to fucking sleep. I'm out.

The beginning of the end...

I cant find the words to explain how I feel.

I could never be truly scared of you. But I will never forget that night.

The fear. The pain. Your hand around the back of my neck. The pressure point of pain. Nonsensical words, phrases. Within minutes, it stops. Finally passed out on the bed. I sit. I wait. I cant sleep.

Hours later.

The blank stare. The look of thoughts running through your mind. The red eyes. The tears. Your tears and mine. "I want to leave, I want to leave". "Im so sorry".

The drive to your house. The hand you held out. Walking through the door. Up the stairs.

Wondering why I was even there. Your words. My disbelief. Still shaken. We sleep.

Here we are now. You say, you say I promise. Dont make promises you cant keep. You will feel the heat when that time comes. If I find out.

It will be the last.

So you arent my best friend yet...

Yep, its been a LONG time since I last posted and yea I've only got what 3 posts up. I'm not addicted to blogging as much as I used to be. MAYBE I should transfer some of my myspace blogs over here. I actually just made a blog post on there a few weeks ago!! Be right back... HAHA!!